So, life took a pretty sharp turn for the worse...I might not be posting for a while.

I apologize for the negativity of my last post here. I have not been going through the best of times recently, however I am now looking on the brighter side of things, and am realizing that there really is quite a bit that is going for me.

Peace and Love

§ - Patrick - §

Whoever claimed that "honesty is the best policy" was LYING!!!

I finally confronted my father honestly about my desires and intentions about BDSM, and he really did not take it well. It seemed to me like he was only listening to half of what I was saying and ignoring the explanation of why I said those things.

I, now, am really scared. I am afraid that he may refuse to let me see Mistress again. That would kill me because she is really the only one that I have to hold on to. She protects me and comforts me. I am also not doing anything wrong (at least I do not think so). I may be different from his "normal", but odd is not the same thing as wrong.

I do not know (or really even care for that point) if anyone reads this; I just needed to rant.



Peace and Love

§ - Patrick - §

I have quite a few things that I want to put here on DA, but how I am going to post them is this: The more comments, favorites, and views that I get...the more I will post deviations and journal entries.


Peace and Love

§ - Patrick Ryan - §

I know that it has been a long time since I have posted anything, and I apologize. The reason is this: I have been really stressed and busy, so every time I start writing a poem, I get part of the way through, then I need to go somewhere and do something. I have a hard time finishing a poem in multiple sittings, so I have many unfinished poems.

What I have been doing instead recently is taking some of my older poems and turning them into songs.


If I can get some people to consistently view my journal here on DA once per week, then I will start up my weekly blog again. (remember the one that I did for about 5 weeks...it was quite a while ago) If I restart that, then I will actually put some interesting things in it.



Peace and Love

Patrick